Answer.

I'm still here. I guess God's response to my prayer is "later", since eventually I will die. We all will. I'm here for a reason, I guess I should try to figure out what that reason is.

I'm watching my niece for another week. It's money, so I'm not complaining. She's adorable anyway, and I love her.

J and I were able to pay off all of our bills with our tax return, but now his car is screwed. Today he's going to look for a new car. I hope he finds one he likes so he'll stop stressing about it. He makes everything tense when he's stressed all the time. I'm trying not to bother him with issues so he can just relax and maybe let go of some of that stress. I keep praying that God will change his heart.

I've had 100 calories so far today. I'm going to try to stay around 500 or less. That used to be my daily routine and it worked really well for me, so I'm going to go back to it. I can't keep purging like I have been, my body just can't take it anymore, and it's painful for me to do.

I hope you're all well.

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