So I've been restricting to about 200 calories for the last few days. It's been pretty easy considering I walk around with a sick feeling all day.
My Dad paid my a visit the other day. He brought me a book of sheet music from Carole King's album "Tapestry". It was an original, so it would have been cool except he told me he got it from his ex-wife, who he's been fantasizing about behind my Mom's back, and has been pursuing her like a fucking creeper the last couple of weeks.
I want to burn the book.
I want to do it right in front of him and say "Fuck you. And fuck her," but he'd probably get a kick out of that because he probably already has fucked her lately. Cheating, lying, nasty asshole. He's been flirting with women all over Facebook, took pics of my Mom off of it, and removed his marital status from his profile. I hate him right now. I hate Facebook. I read somewhere that a significant percentage of divorces filed recently have been because of infidelity that had something to do with Facebook, and the number keeps rising. That's fucked up. Our society is shit. Seriously. Who is pathetic enough to flirt with idiots on Facebook? This is why people suck, and I put absolutely no hope in humanity. None. All we care about is getting what we want, when we want it.
I used to have that problem...and then I turned 5. And eventually grew up.
Toddlers. They're all toddlers. Including my own father. It makes me sick.
I sincerely hope he's miserable for the rest of his life. I hope he fails at everything he does. I hope every dirty little secret he's been hiding gets exposed to the entire world. I hope he falls from his "victim pedestal" he's put himself on. I wish I could fucking push him off of it.
Okay. I'm done ranting about that for today.
I hope you're all well.
xoxo
I know what you mean about facebook. What it isn't cheating because its online? Same fucking principal if you asked me.
ReplyDeleteI broke up a four year relationship over constant online flirting and am so much better for it. There are men out there that don't need constant attention from a harem of women aswell.
Just sorry this is about your dad, it was really hard loosing faith in mine when it turned out he'd been having an affair. It gets better though. Just hope that doesn't happen to you. xxxx
BF and me (mostly because of me) have had countless arguments about who he is friends with and what he does.
ReplyDeleteI'm genuinely sorry about your dad's behavior...but if it makes u feel better, apparently, many men are like that. I'm living with one of them.
Let him have his karma do the things he deserves - I truly believe in the end, in the very end...he will suffer the most.
Just hang in there, be strong and try to take good care of yourself. :)
Hey, girl. Just found your site and love your writing style.
ReplyDeleteI am really sorry to hear your thoughts on the human race. While it's not necessarily true that ALL of society is hopeless, I am still trying to find reasons not to think so.
Hang in there, babe.