It's been forever...

Sorry for the lack of posts for the past couple of months...I've been really busy, although I know that's not much of an excuse. I hope you're all doing well.

I've been doing alright, not as well as I would like though. I feel like I've lost a bit of motivation. Maybe it's because I haven't been keeping up with this site, and the ones that I used to read regularly. Things like that have always been a motivation for me.

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Aches

Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been a bit busy.

My restricting is still going pretty well. I'm not the type that usually has alot of ups and downs unless there's something else going on. The only real problems I've been having are aches all over. But that's to be expected...I've gone through it all before. I've been this way since I was 12.

Anyway...Thinspo:

My Delirium

So things have been going really well for me. 170 calories so far today. I'm pretty sure that's all I'll have.

I thought I would use one of my favorite music artists as thinspo today- Ladyhawke:

The Cheesecake Factory

So I just survived dinner at The Cheesecake Factory. Of all the places my family wanted to go eat at, they had to pick the resturant that serves extremely fattening food in gigantic portions. Ugh. But I did really well. I ordered a salad, and only ate a couple of bites of the chicken that was on it. I didn't touch anything else. I feel good about it.

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I live in an ice cube...

...not literally, of course. But lately it feels like I really do live in an ice cube. Partly because my Dad likes to keep the house freezing cold, and partly because I don't eat "enough". It's July, and I feel the need to wear sweaters around my house all the time. But I guess I shouldn't complain...

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The Sick

So whenever I'm sick, I usually categorize my sickness by how bad it is. There's "kinda sick", "pretty sick", and "THE sick". Unfortuantely I have THE sick at the moment. Two days, and I feel miserable. The only good thing about it is that I have no real desire to eat anything at all. I hope I get better soon, I hate feeling like this.

It's day 6 of my 30 day plan, and I've done wonderfully. I feel really proud of myself. I feel like I'm finally getting somewhere, finally heading in the direction I've wanted to go for so long.

There are some not so good things that have happened as well. For reasons I can't really say, I might have to postpone college until next semester. *Sighhhh* I don't want to. At all. I want to get the things done that need to be done in order for me to apply for Law School, but everything is having to be postponed, and it's incredibly annoying. Ugh.

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So...

I'm going to start posting on here again. It seems that the majority of pro-ana websites and blogs out there only last for a few months at the most, and then they're either shut down or abandoned. I refuse to be one of the many doing that sort of thing, so I'm going to start posting regularly on here.

I've decided to do this plan for 30 days without breaking it at all. Usually I restrict for a couple of weeks and then have a day or two where I fail. Terribly. I'm getting incredibly worn out by that process though, so I've started the 30 day no-tolerance-for-cheating-crap...thing.

It's day 4 and I've done wonderfully. I'm proud of myself.

So I thought about putting up my stats like most other pro-anas would on their sites, but after much consideration, I've come to the conclusion that I'm simply too much of a cow to post them. Maybe I'll post them after the 30 days when I'm half the cow I am now.

Until the next post...Stay strong.

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