1/19/2010

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Stay strong little anas.

Swines

Hello little anas.

So I found out that my boyfriend is okay, but the Doctors think he has strep, but they did tests for swine-flu, just in case. That's not even the reason he went to the hospital, they just happened to notice it. But the point is, he's okay. And I'm semi-relieved. I feel like its not over yet though. He's still not feeling well, and what if it gets worse?? Ugh. I guess I can't think about it too much. I just hope he's completely well soon.

I'm sitting here watching Food Network...and I have no idea why. I haven't binged, and I don't plan to...soooo I dunno why I'm watching this. I'm still doing well with my restricting, and I'm really happy about it. Things are really starting to look up for me. I have grand plans that are all falling into place :)

I think I'm going to go make some coffee. Stay strong. I'll edit with thinspo later.

Snow

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates lovelies.

Updates: The Holidays were crap, as expected. Not necessarily because of the food (I actually did quite well), but more so because my family can't get through one day without arguing. *Siiiiiigh* So I'm kind of glad it's over, though I find that thought really sad, since I've always loved Christmas.

Anyway, lately I've been doing marvelously with my restricting. I've found that when I put myself in a certain mindset, it comes so easily. When I decide beforehand that the answer is always "NO" when I say to myself, "One cookie wouldn't hurt..." or "Just a few chips...", I find that I do much better, and though its always in the back of my head, my immediate thoughts are not SO consumed with food. I just don't allow myself to think about it so much. Now, I'm well aware that this will probably only take me so far, and that eventually it might not work that way for me anymore, but for now, I'm sticking with what works.

I haven't eaten anything today yet, though I can smell breakfast food being cooked downstairs. It smells really good, which is why I refuse to leave my room until I'm sure all of its been eaten by my family. I'm not really thinking about it too much at the moment though because my mind is preoccupied with other things. My boyfriend called me this morning to tell me that he's going to the hospital. Something bad happened. He told me to just wait for him to call me and let me know what's going on, but it makes me really anxious. If anything ever happened to him, I really don't know what I would do. He's really the only person that knows who I am, and loves me anyway. He's so good to me. I hope he's okay.

I hope you all are doing well. Let me know, I'd love to hear from you...whoever you may be :)

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